It's late

I have a headache. I think it's the weather getting to me. I come home from work tired and stressed. I really hate the evening shifts. I don't get home till after 10. But, I did get to play with Nevaeh for a while, and she always makes me smile. She is the center of my universe. Being a father really changes everything. You realize you live for something more important than yourself. This little person holds such much power over you. And you love them for it.

cluttered thoughts pt 1

I just got off a 9 hour shift, and I am exhausted. My car blew up yesterday, and is in the shop today. I have spent the last 2 hours thinking about fasting, and wondering if it may be a good idea to help myself become more focused in my walk with God. My daughter is asleep, and my wife is eating cereal. I need to sleep, but I have food in the microwave because even though I am thinking about starting a fast, it will not start tonight.

And now I am taking a deep breath...

Yin and Yang

I hate my job. Problem is, it pays well. I loved my last job. Thing is, I hardly made anything.

See, this is what is bothering me lately. Why can I not have a job I love and make good money doing it? I know life isn't fair, but this has been on my mind lately.

And tonight I am stressed about my job. This week I missed time because of weather. I am worried that they will hold it against me someway. Maybe I am just stressing over nothing. I hope so.

2008

It's a new year. It's a new blog. But, it's the same old me. Maybe it's time for a change. I dunno. I know that I want to focus more on my relationships. My friendships. My family. My relationship with God.

Problem is, I deal with all this guilt. I know I am no where near where I want to be with God. I feel like I am making too many bad decisions. I have all this truth, these God given revelations stirring in my belly, but I feel I have no right to share them.

But, again, as Aaron Lewis said, maybe tomorrow will be ok.